Paused without Cause?

So, I owe you an apology. 

I'm sorry. I disappeared, without cause. Well, it may seem without cause to you but I had a reason. 

You see I try my best to retell Valencia's stories with such detail, that I revert back to that exact date and time in my mind. I remember all the details as though it was yesterday. I want to tell the story as though you are right there with me, right there next to me in the room and in the moment. 

Because I place so much detail into retelling the situation,  I have to relive some of the most painful, trauma causing events as a mother that I have ever had to go through. I'm forced to recount in absolute detail the moments where as a mother I am left feeling helpless and completely guilt ridden. It takes it's toll on my mental health. So I had to take a pause for what seemed like without a cause. I hope you understand the break and will once again follow along as her story continues on a more regular basis. 

I am truly thankful to those of you that are vested in Valencia's story and have followed along thus far. It's not all mentally taxing, in fact, there is a lot of joyous events to share in the coming posts. There is still so much more to her story than I have even shared. Thank you for your support, your thoughts, and your prayers. 

- Janann, aka mother to the strongest little girl I know.